But today, just today, I am going to ''escape'' from the ''tired mom world''. I am going to sit here and believe that back at home everything is under control. I am going to have a worry-less day so that I free myself from not only the physical but emotional exhaustion too. I am going to assume that my daughter will wake up and hubby will serve her porridge, at the right temperature, not too hot, not too cold. I am going to believe that even when she says ''no'' and be all dramatic like she usually is, hubby will not let her get away with it but at-least make her eat half her food.
Today I am going to believe that my husband wont accidentally swear in front of the baby, because these days she has a tendency of repeating everything she hears. I am going to believe that he will notice when the baby needs a diaper change and when the baby has pooped, he will handle it nicely without messing the sheets.
Today I am going to hope that when my baby cries uncontrollably for her daddy's ice cold fizzy drink he would nicely decline and give her warm milk instead, rather than just give her some sips simply because she is crying for the ice cold beverage so ''she must really want it, its just a few sips anyway'' like he would normally say. I am going to sit here and hope that my next nanny will be nothing less than heaven sent, and that she is actually coming today!
And when I get home I am going to undo my hair, take out these long heavy braids, so that my head is literally lighter, not only because of the ''thoughts-free'' ''worry-less'' day I have had. And I am going to take a long hot relaxing bath with mood altering bath salts. And when my daughter cries while I am in the middle of taking my bath, I am not going to rush quickly out of the bath to go see whats wrong, I am going to wholeheartedly believe that she is throwing one of her famous tantrums because of something small like her teddy bear not responding to her...... uhm....commands.
Today I am not going to worry about whats for dinner, whether my baby has had her last meal of the day or taken her flu medicine, I sincerely believe that my lovely hubby has that all covered. So I am going to sleep in early.
Yes today, just today, I will ''escape'' the tired mom world. And as I go to sleep at night, feeling a bit more relaxed, worry-less, still more madly in love with my daughter, I will hope and believe that tomorrow when its all said and done and its back to the real mommy world, I will feel more revitalized, energised and ready to put on my supermom vest back on. And hopefully finally find the strength and confidence to say to my unborn child: ''Mommy is ready for you soldier!''
